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Are You Loneosme Tonight?

Are you lonesome tonight, (Estás solitário esta noite?)
Do you miss me tonight? (Sentes a minha falta esta noite?)
Are you sorry we drifted apart? (Estás arrependido de nos termos afastado?)
Does your memory stray to a brighter sunny day (Vem-te à memória os claros dias de sol)
When I kissed you and called you sweetheart?  (Em que eu te beijava e te chamava amor?)
Do the chairs in your parlor seem empty and bare? (As cadeiras da sala parecem-te vazias e futeis?)
Do you gaze at your doorstep and picture me there? (Olhas para a porta e imaginas-me a chegar?)
Is your heart filled with pain, shall I come back again? (Tens o coração cheio de dor, será que devo voltar?)
Tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight?  (Diz-me amor, estás solitário esta noite?)

I wonder if you're lonesome tonight (Interrogo-me se estarás solitário esta noite)
You know someone said that the worlds a stage (Sabes, alguém disse que o mundo é um palco)
And each must play a part. (E cada um deve representar o seu papel.)
Fate had me playing in love you as my sweet heart. (O destino fez-me tocar-te com o meu amor.)
Act one was when we met, I loved you at first glance (O primeiro acto foi quando nos conhecemos, foi amor à primeira vista)
You read your line so cleverly and never missed a cue (Leste sempre com tanta astúcia, e nunca perdeste um sugestão)
Then came act two, you seemed to change and you acted strange (Depois veio o segundo acto, pareces-te mudar e agirste de modo estranho)
And why I'll never know. (O porquê nunca vou saber.)
Honey, you lied when you said you loved me (Querido, mentiste quando disseste que me amavas)
And I had no cause to doubt you. (E não tinha razões para duvidar de ti.)
But I'd rather go on hearing your lies (Mas preferia continuar a ouvir as tuas mentiras)
Than go on living without you. (Do que continuar a viver sem ti.)
Now the stage is bare and Im standing there (Agora que o palco está vazio e estou aqui no meio dele)
With emptiness all around (Com o vazio ao meu redor)
And if you wont come back to me (Se não voltares para mim)
Then make them bring the curtain down. (Faz com que desçam o pano.)

Is your heart filled with pain, shall I come back again? (O teu coração está cheio de dor, devo voltar para ti?)
Tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight? (Diz-me querido, estás solitário esta noite?)

Where the f**** am I?

Why do you have to do all of this?

Now that we're having a baby... How can you?

It’s so stupid of you!

I don’t want to believe what my eyes forced me to see… But I just can’t ignore it! You’re despising everything you have over fire works… I never toad you’d be like this. I had really high expectations on you. I did think you ware better than that! I really believed you ware some man! Deception… It’s the only word that comes across my mind.

I could put up with lots of crap when things ware different, but now I’m no longer willing to do so. One has to be responsible, one has to grow up and learn with its own mistakes. It’s true that something’s we do may change our life for good, but that’s a risk you’re taking, I suppose.

Maybe somewhere along the way you’ll regret, and probably you will, if you keep going that way. I’m not obliged to put up with this and I might just loose control and let go of everything. You know you don’t deserve everything I give to you.

Sometimes I wonder why God makes miracles in the middle of the war. Just to let you know you must keep going? I have to believe it is that way, otherwise I’d be expecting no baby from you, at all... You keep up a battle with me… And it’s so useless… It’s like if God was struggling to tell me not to let go, to keep fighting. It’s like if God wanted to be sure I wouldn’t let go of you. He doesn’t want the chance to pass us by! You can’t imagine how much of a miracle I’m carrying, can you?

There is something inside of me that tells me I should wait until I go to the Doctor, there is something telling me to trust, and I will. I’ve always been told I could not conceive, I always believed that, and I knew you’d leave me because of that… All of a sudden the world turns up side down… And in a one shot at luck… One time… It’s not coincidence, there are no such things!

Please stop messing around with me! You have no idea how much I’ve been pushing myself to the limit so you don’t notice I’m pregnant… And I don’t become a boring thing instead of a good company. Yesterday I ended up like that because I ended up pushing my self beyond the limit and there are boundaries for a pregnant…

Stop being mean to me… F**** That!

I LOVE U!

I just don’t know if no news is good news or bad news!!!! I’m totally lost inside myself! Wish yesterday you had been in a better mood for most of the night… But I hope that today you’ll be ok…

I need to talk to you about this… I really do! I’m so scared right now… Though I believe nothing has happened!

Still loving you Peter Pan*

Why did I came here and updated my ticker bars?

Now I'm scared!

Two days until testing? I've never toad I'd come to this... I've never toad it would get this close to testing date without bloody news... Still, I was just ok, and now I realized this was a very crucial moment and I shiver! I've already started to have all symptoms of when my menstruation is about to come, but I know it's a nervous matter... 'Though, I'm probably just wondering and imagining things, because I don't really believe I'm pregnant.

If I was pregnant miracles happen, that’s for sure! I’ll start having a lot more faith!

Now imagine my position… I was going to buy an adult bed for our guest room and now, I don’t know if I should buy a cradle or a bed… Nevertheless it’s the same furniture so it gets easier. Ikea is, after all, a great option. If there’s a baby on the way, the bedroom will be plain white, but I’ll make sure walls are painted with child motives and, the baby will have a world of bright happy colors to surround him. That, at least, I can promise…

Despite all fights and other stupid moments, if such miracle has happened, it’s because we deserve it and, it’s the result of a great love. It wasn’t an accident and no baby could wish for a better mom or dad. But I’ll just stick to the case and stop right here.

Probably tomorrow all dreams will have vanished… But right now, it sure feels great to have a doubt! But I’m scared.

Even when you make it harder on me...

Why do you ask, all of a sudden, if I don't want to try and have a baby once again...

Part of me feels like it's a great idea, but this sudden fear that it might not happen once again, scares the hell out of me, and I feel like I don’t have the courage to go for it again…

Still, if I take a deep breath and let go of all my fears, I’d do it all again, because I’m sure you’d like having a baby. Nevertheless if I stop taking the pill now, as I’ve already started taking it again this month, combining this with that particular peculiarity of mine, chances of having a baby would go from very few to scarce!

When I come to think of it, you don’t want a dog for now, but you’d consider a baby! Strange thing, isn’t it? Perhaps it’s because babies can enter all hotels and we can carry them everywhere. A dog it’s not so simple, that I know.

Nothing like having a shower together to wash away all the sorrow in you, and all the things that hurt you. You’ll be out of the blue in a minute… Water can heal you, can mend your tumbling world and get you back to what’s real.

The lights shine a different colour and happiness starts coming back into your heart. A shower washes your body, your soul and your dreams. I found out that you feel much better after a great revitalising shower than you do after crying your heart out; so, if I was you, showering and love making would be the thing to do! It was a real therapy to me washing you and your body yesterday... I felt so sexually into you, because in terms of feelings, I heal easily and I’m always into you...

Love all the little things we do! No matter what you do, just keep me making love to and, please note that sex is not the most import thing betwen me and you. Chesmestry is... I enjoy your company so much... I love the way you smile and all cheerfull things you do! I love the way you smile and all cheerful things you do. I will always be there for you, no matter what you do or what we’re going trough.

I just love having a cup of hot cocoa with you...

By night in the balcony, looking into the river... The lights are on and the moon shines above our home. It's so romantic... It's warm and cool. That cup of cocoa really warmed my heart... I guess we can say that ir ended up warming you and me... Sexually... Though when we entered the door you ware already into me and I, I had long been into you, constantly!

Nobody knows why do we stop loving someone, we only realize that when it’s over and we can find a billion reasons for that. Without chemistry it’s impossible to live with whoever it is... But chemestry this is not just sexual, you have to enjoy waking up right by that person side.

Falling a sleep is pretty easy, waking up is the hardest part. You have to love waking up, having coffee, travelling, and eventually consider having childre with that someone. You have to understand that person and respect it when she’s blue and down on it self.

Why do you love someone? That, unfortunately, I can not tell… People like me have been alone for several years and all of a sudden someone arrives and in a short period of time, without previous notice, you realize “It is the on”. Why? That I do not know… But the truth is that you’ve found your better half, and that’s what’s the matter in this life!

Peter Pan, I Love You and I always will.

José Gameiro has had it into words... I only sort of copy/ pasted part of it into here... But I only want you to know that this is true :) I'm still Loving You!

Maybe next time we'll make it!

No baby for now just like I expected...

Given the circunstances, I can only think of this song: